Failed Adoption Match..

I really haven't felt like writing lately. After 15 months of actively waiting status (we had to have our homestudy complete to wait), we were matched with a birthmom in a nearby state. The match sounded perfect, it was going to be a little girl. The birth mom was placing because she already have several (more than 6) children in her custody and was struggling. She had placed a couple times before so we thought it was unlikely that she'd change her mind. It was going to be great, we were going to drive there. We could take the kids and my mom. 
I have been busy getting things ready and also I've been distracting myself with books and cleaning to make the time go by faster. We found out when before Christmas, birth mom was 34 weeks along. Fast forward 5 weeks, we are sitting by the phone anxiously awaiting our cue to travel... except the phone call we got was all different :-( 
Long story short, birth mom decided to parent. Although it was sad for us, I'm all for birth parents parenting. I hope everything works out for them. As for us, we hope to be matched again soon.